Wednesday, August 2

Only you ...

Life is strange. Guess that's what keeps our clock ticking. There is this person in our lives who earns up to become the closest ever to you as you grow up.

Someone to whome you can be the naked truth, be just what you are.
Someone who accepts you for what you are.
Someone upon whome you can lean on.
Someone who truly lends their ears and time when you most want them.
Someone with whome you feel @ home.
Someone who made you a better person.
Someone who cares about you more than self.
Someone who takes a share in your emotions.
Someone who despite the relation turns out to be the bestest of friend's you've ever had.
Someone who makes you happy at their smile and cry when glum.
Someone with whome you share your life with (not as in a partner :p).

Especially when you'v never had such a trusty person for a confidant it seems like life has taken a turn to wonderland. With so much support you feel like you can conquer the world. Like being given a purpose to life.

But then again tides change. Nothing is permanent.

The moment it receedes, feels like everything is over. Life seemingly comes to a grinding halt. Like you have no more strength left in you. Like you can't breathe anymore, think anymore, feel life anymore. With that person no longer around life ain't the same anymore. Guess in time the loss of a person fades away and you get into grips with reality. Though everything rosy has now turned into gray.

If loss of a person is heartbreaking, its even worse when you get to know all of it was a lie. Everything you believed, you cherished, what you believed were the best of memories for life - they are not gone, they are not dead, but they never were but for your perception. Self repugnance hits you and you feel like puking at the very thought of thyself. Remember the scene in The Matrix where Neo pukes when he gets to know the truth? For a long time I felt it was ridiculous, didn't quite comprehend what the feeling was about. Now I know how it feels like.

Life is definitely stranger than fiction. Guess that's given to the fickleness of the human mind. Misconstrued beliefs? Or is it just me?

As John Nash would say - "They're my past, Martin. Everybody is haunted by their past". Maybe I should choose not to acknowledge as much.

13 Comments:

At Wednesday, August 02, 2006 6:03:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

All I know is that this Life is just an illusion. Cos what happened to my dad then? He was there, all live n bubbly and always beside me and suddenly he was no more. What's that? If life was ooo big and real, why is it so fragile?

but I know one thing...ppl may leave/die, but the love they leave behind never dies.


** Everybody is haunted by their past

and sometimes the future.

Keshi.

 
At Wednesday, August 02, 2006 8:46:00 PM, Blogger SamY said...

guess u really took a big hit nut :( ... therz no way I can empathize truly on this one ... guess ppl get hit differently ... one thing in common is it makes us stoical

** and sometimes the future

but at the least you'v got a say on that na :)

 
At Wednesday, August 02, 2006 11:05:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

true...such scars dun leave us for long.

yep u've got a say on the future but u had one for the past too...and sometimes ur say doesnt count.

Keshi.

 
At Wednesday, August 02, 2006 11:09:00 PM, Blogger SamY said...

** yep u've got a say on the future but u had one for the past too

past is done with ... u can remake it ... with the future u'v got a chance :)

** and sometimes ur say doesnt count.

I agree with u on that ... esp when ur outnumbered

 
At Thursday, August 03, 2006 9:47:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

when I read ur title 'Only You' I was thinking u were proposing to me..lol!

Keshi.

 
At Thursday, August 03, 2006 10:00:00 PM, Blogger SamY said...

:)) now ur really tempting me nut :p

proposing with a blog post :-? ... that would be innovative ... but I'd rather prefer to say it in person :D ... if n when I get a chance to

it would be much too easy to write it in a letter/mail/post ... dun u think so? Prof. Keshi :p ... I dare not mention in what ;))

 
At Thursday, August 03, 2006 10:07:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

Well this bloggerkitten loves to be innovative...a blog proposal wud be just awesome as long as the honeymoon is not spent blogging. lol!

Keshi.

 
At Thursday, August 03, 2006 10:49:00 PM, Blogger SamY said...

** Well this bloggerkitten loves to be innovative

sure u do *NUT* ... wondering upto what ends u'd go :-? he he ... esp with ur doctorate :p

well then y dun u host a swayamvaram of proposal for ya on ur blog ... titled "Operation P2K" (propose to keshi) ... wat say ;)

** as long as the honeymoon is not spent blogging

ha ha ... did ya think we'd leave u on ur honeymoon without updates from ya /:) ... NO WAY!!!

without ur tutoring what wud all of inexperienced *mankind* do :-?? ... its ur duty na (as u mentioned in ur prev post) to enlighten ppl :D

 
At Sunday, August 06, 2006 9:45:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

**its ur duty na (as u mentioned in ur prev post) to enlighten ppl

haha no ways! Whoever said that? I cant reveal my honeymoon detals JEEEEEEEZ Samy lol!

mebbe u should tell us abt ur's - then we can all share..hahaha!

Keshi.

 
At Sunday, August 06, 2006 9:48:00 PM, Blogger SamY said...

** haha no ways! Whoever said that?

if u wud like me to, I'll pick you own statement saying so from you post - " A Brief Analysis"

** mebbe u should tell us abt ur's

ladies 1st :D ... based on the response I'll give it a shot :p

 
At Sunday, August 06, 2006 10:21:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

haha ur cheating now!

Keshi.

 
At Sunday, August 06, 2006 10:32:00 PM, Blogger SamY said...

okie whoever gets to have the 1st honeymoon gets to fill in ... deal?

 
At Monday, August 07, 2006 6:54:00 PM, Blogger Keshi said...

DEAL! ;-)

Keshi.

 

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