Sometimes what you get in life is not quite what you want although you thought so. All of a sudden all that you held onto don't make sense. It's there right upfront but you dont want to accept it anymore. Coz you realize after a while that what has really come about is that your mind complies to the conditioning you are subjected to rather than your dream. Life doesn't seem to head towards the purpose you once thought it did. Instead you feel you are chasing someone else's dream. With the purpose of your life so murky living seams so meaningless. It feels weird.